people don’t really talk about the risk of loving someone. how if you fall in love and it doesn’t work out that you will never be the same person you once were. that a part of you dies with the relationship. that your heart will refuse to open up again. that the pain never really goes away, you just get used to it.
“Maybe in five years our paths will cross again, i will tell you how desperately in love i was with you and we can laugh about how we broke each other’s hearts.”— Selina Soldner
“I don’t know if people like me ever find love. I think I’m just the kind of person who loves. I’m always the one who loves without being loved in return.”
— unrequited love is my destiny
“you’re so quiet” bro everyone ignores me and nobody cares about what i have to say
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my list is very protein based. i also don’t like to make substitutions for bread because i find it leaves me unsatisfied and results in me eating more of the substitution than i would’ve eaten of the real thing
- spicy pickles
specifically these ones because they’re so spicy that i can only nibble on them for a few minutes before i have to take a break and drink water to cool my mouth. 25 cals for ~4 pickle slices. beware: these contain high fructose corn syrup
- baby goldfish cheddar crackers
only 140 cal for 89 crackers. i usually eat half for a total of 70 cal
- jumbo blueberries
- starkist tuna pouches
70 cal and 17 grams of protein
- amy’s chili
entire can is only 440 calories and i typically can’t eat all of it in one sitting. filling for extreme hunger days and keeps me warm
- entire red bell pepper with 2 tbsp litehouse homestyle ranch
bell pepper is about 37 cal and ranch is 120 cal
- deli turkey wrapped around cheddar cheese stick
tillamook cheddar cheese sticks are 90 cal and a slice of deli turkey is 29 cal
- hard boiled eggs with sriracha or mustard
hard boiled egg is 77 cal and sriracha and mustard are 0 cal
- chik sandwich
kings hawaiian roll with morning star spicy buffalo chik patty or boca regular chik patty, mayo, sweet relish, sriracha. feels like eating unhealthy chicken burger but is smaller, healthier, and just as tasty
- apple with tbsp nut butter
apple is 95 cals and nut butter is ~ 94 cal
- raspberries
eat a whole tiny carton for only 64 cal
- fake crepe
- mini flour tortilla with nutella, cream cheese or mascarpone, and berries
- mini flour tortilla with mascarpone and chocolate chips plus bananas and pb drizzle
- pepperoni wrapped around mozz chz stick
galbani whole milk (whole milk dairy usually contains less added sugar and more protein) string cheese is 90 cal and 3 slices of pepperoni (salami-sized) are 30 cal
- chicken salad either plain or in lettuce cups
- rotisserie chicken, tzatziki sauce, aioli, finely diced cucumber, mama lil’s spicy peppers, cilantro
- rotisserie chicken, diced celery, golden raisins, curry powder, mayo, crushed cashews, cilantro
- rotisserie chicken, diced celery, diced apple, quartered grapes, crushed walnuts, dried cranberries, mayo
- caprese salad
i make mine with a mix of constellation tomatoes (the mini heirloom twilights are my favorite), mini mozzarella ciliegine marinated in herbs and olive oil, fresh basil, salt, pepper, and balsamic glaze drizzle
- hard boiled egg blt bites
1 piece of cooked bacon cut into 4 equal parts, two hard boiled eggs cut in half, a small dab of garlic aioli on each egg half, then add the bacon, a torn piece of lettuce, and half of a cherry tomato on top. super tasty and no bread!
- english muffin OR mini bagel avocado toast
toast your english muffin or mini bagel and top with mashed avocado, red chili flakes, cucumber slices, and tomato slices—can also add cream cheese for more protein
- diet coke
- carrot salad
shredded carrots, pineapple yogurt, pineapple tidbits, raisins, mixed well
- crispy broiled broccoli with lots of seasonings
- chicken crust pizza
top with pesto, shredded mozz cheese, sundried tomatoes, thinly sliced red onion crescents, toasted pine nuts, and arugula
- refried bean dip with tortilla chips
refried beans, water, sour cream, cheese, salsa, lime juice, corn
- smith’s and harney & sons teas
- justin’s nut butter packets
- avocado egg salad
1 hard boiled egg mashed with half an avocado, mayo, add plenty of diced red onion, jalapeño, cilantro and s&p. i eat this with tortilla chips
- homemade soups
tomato, creamy mushroom, butternut squash, potato leek, broccoli cheddar, creamy chicken, southwest taco chili
- bubbly water
- homemade spicy rosemary mixed nuts
these pair SO well with a cocktail. all i do is buy nuts in bulk from the market, warm them in the oven, take them out and coat them in a mixture of plant based butter, cayenne, brown sugar, a bit of salt, and finely chopped fresh rosemary while they’re still hot and OMG i die
- chocolate chips
- spicy cheese crunchies from trader joe’s
a healthier alternative to flamin’ hot cheetos
- kettle & fire bone broth
- tillamook yogurt
so many tasty flavors and good source of protein to help keep me full
- pickled green beans
- stumptown cold brew coffee
they have year-round and seasonal flavors like horchata cold brew and x-mas cheer alongside vanilla and chocolate. plus they make these in an oat milk option as well
- kale salad
preferred kale, roasted butternut squash, lightly salted pumpkin seeds, dried cherries, goat cheese, and lemon vinaigrette dressing. add chicken or fish to stay fuller longer
- garden lites spinach and egg white frittata
70 cals per frittata. the texture of these kind of reminds me of meatloaf in how dense they are and i find that very satisfying
- squeeze pouch apple sauce
great for taking snacks to-go. noka also makes superfood smoothies that are 110 or 120 cal
- olives
absolutely love these briney boys. buy fresh from the fancy cheese section of the market
- rainier cherries
- pocky sticks
these are EVERYTHING. crunchy, sweet, and only 200 cal for the entire small box
- truly, white claw, or bon & viv hard seltzer drinks
- pumpkin chocolate chip pancakes
1 medium pancake with 1 tbsp peanut butter keeps me full for a while
it’s okay to mourn the person you could have been. it’s okay to be angry or resentful at that lost potential. it’s okay to be sad about it too. but i want you to know that there are so many parts of you, the you that exists right now, that are beautiful and lovely and meaningful. just because your past is lost doesn’t mean your future has to be too.
how is there so much going on inside of my head but aIso literally nothing
me and my friends do this thing called “hitting em with the googoo gaga” where when we get hate mail or shit talked in online games we just reply “googoo gaga.” it makes gamers unspeakably mad. dont know why
